Want to Help

I don't remember a lot of conflict with the older kids when they were pre-teens. I really want to help my youngest sort through some issues. I wish I could help him, I just have to figure out how.

Feeling Wanted

It was so nice to see my parents more over the past few months. The best part was when I was leaving my parent's house was when my mom hugged me and said she "was sad to see me go."

Decisions

Making a decision, and finding out later if it was right or wrong, is better then making no decision. I wish I was encouraged as a child to take risks.

Will I Find Happiness?

Why is life so complicated? I never thought my life would come to the point it has. I am confused. I want to be happy, but I am unsure of what will make me happy.

Song That Won't Let Go

Every once in awhile, I get a song stuck in my head, and I suddenly will hear myself singing it aloud. Right now the song is Crazier by Taylor Swift. A simple song.

I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go to
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh oh

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin' and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier

How Tall Are You?

As I was standing next to my son, Andrew, looking in the mirror, I teased him that he is a little taller than me. He laughed and smiled his boyish smile, but looked slightly irritated.

I asked him if people still comment on his height.

"Every day."

Surprised, I asked him what people say.

" "How tall are you?" is the what people ask most of the time."

"Really? How often do people ask you?"

"Every day."

We both smiled in the mirror as I pulled him close and hugged him.

Friendship

As I watch my daughter grow up, I understand how important it is for her to learn about friendship. To learn about sharing and caring, and how friendship is the foundation to all relationships in her life and not to take them for granted.

To not be afraid to show her true feelings, nor pretend for the sake of hurting another, to express feelings she doesn't have.

Don't pretend.